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my computer project only received a luke-warm finish. though i had the entire spring break to do it, i didn't start until thursday due to work and the english essay i was working. so, what's it like to learn a grammar? hmm, let's see, how shall i explain this?

so suppose you have these sentences:

• i do not like green eggs and ham
• i do not like them.

i hope that you recognize where these sentences are coming from. if not, then your childhood was depraved indeed. so, notice that the first four words in these sentences have common items. so, you'd like something of the form:

• S1 -> i do not like X1
• X1 -> green eggs and ham
• X1 -> them.

admittedly, this is an ultra-geeky logical formalism to describe how someone would make generalized sentences structures (given a set of sentences). Sentence 1 points to suffixes X1, which can take on multiple values. that was basically what my project was (supposed) to do. it's suppose to model how a child might learn language.

it's been on my mind lately, even though it's been due a week ago. i got it working, to a good extent. but i still have this - hmm, what shall i call it? - ethereal, fishy, sensation that there's something amiss ("there's treachery afoot!!"). meh, must just be paranoia.

a few short months will bring the end of yet another semester at berkeley. in some ways, there's a reason to look forward to it... for other reasons, it is a much more different end than the other semesters that i've completed.

i'm moving out by the end of this semester... hopefully to live on my own, without any roommates. i'm looking forward to it -- looking forward to my year-long hermitage. i have too many siblings, so i never got to have my own room when i lived at home with my parents. then i moved into the dorms where i had two roommates. then i had the unfortunate time of being stuck with my current roommate.

work has been pretty challenging lately. i've worked at the same place for nearly two years. it has its ups and downs. lately... it's been "down." my post-graduation plans are to find a job. but what shall i do? software? IT consulting? it seems the market for tech jobs is horrendous lately; especially with the trend of outsourcing that everyone seems concerned with.

a lot about the future, more than anything else at the moment - that's where my thoughts circle. of course, the usual feelings don't go away and they tie in with the events that i fore see now. almost all my friends are graduating; i'm once again the "black sheep," the one who decides to stick around and stay in school for another year.

loneliness is a conundrum with no answer - other than to be with someone else? i wonder how life will be when this academic year has finally lapsed. will i see my old friends, or shall i disappear into the "real" world in a pit of urban obscurity? well, two months time will tell.

too many fragmentary thoughts. not enough time to make them commensurate. enough for now i guess.