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I'm thinking about distance mainly - the kind that strengthens that same feeling in my heart. It's quite simple perhaps, if you think of the stars in the sky for example. The contrast of each extreme epitome of light against an endless backdrop of darkness makes a star what it is - the peak to which all eyes tend. Now you might think: which am I? Am I a star separated by a interminable void from my fellow sky partner? Or are am I a patch of invisible darkness reaching for an unattainable peak of light?

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but like cyrano de bergerac says, the fall is great if you're reaching for a star.

things i've been thinking about lately (in no particular order):

• i'm too nice to be honest to anyone
• the closer you get to someone the more critical and direct they become
• the closer you get to someone the more their criticism bothers you
• i am a crappy friend.
• one is company. two is a crowd. three is too much.

i think i'm becoming sick; too much time spent lying in my living room floor, eating ice cream and yakisoba. i wish someone would break the mundanity, but in a good way. a turn for the worst is certainly a change of pace, but not one i would welcome.

despite the dampened mood, optimism is a must. life can only get better or stay as it is.