the void of last week is almost as big as the void in my heart
August 1, 2020, 9:52 AM
What happened?
I thought that two weeks ago was some kind of interminable void from whence nothing would return, but then I think about last week. Complete and utter darkness - for lack of better phrasing. Maybe this week's blog post will be that elusive "short-short" version that I'm always going on about, but end up never quite achieving.
Last week, anxiety was primarily the name of the game, which isn't exactly nothing but is nonetheless not terribly entertaining. When I went back to look at my Five Minute Journal entries for the last week, it seems that introspection was really at a minimum. I still felt a little anxious about things, even though that work issue I was worried about eventually resolved itself perfectly.
Due to any lack of a cohesive "theme" for the last week, I think I'll just mention what happened in some sporadic and poorly thought-out episodes.
I have a love/hate relationship with work. I like my job, mostly; but I hate it sometimes. I guess that's the very definitely of the love-hate relationship.
When I was deep in the bowels of depression in college, getting up and ready for the day every morning was a struggle. Every day, before I was about the head out the door, I'd stop at the entrance and say to myself, "This is all happening for a reason." I don't know why I'd do this - I guess unconsciously, it was a little push I needed to keep going. Or it just made my life seem more dramatic than it was/is.
I go back to that thought now and again, while I'm at work. While the feelings aren't as intense, they still linger in the back of my mind.
I finished Assassin's Creed Rogue. It was... okay. I heard some reviews saying it was one of the best Assassin's Creed games. My experience after playing it is: again, don't believe everyone on the internet. It was a fun, short, jaunt. The story was kind of meh, but at least I understood why it was named, "Rogue".
My experience with Rogue makes me think about two things:
- there are quite many things that people like, which I think are terrible; and most certainly the opposite is true as well.
- Henry's Hunan Chinese food.
I love Henry's Hunan. It gets middling reviews on Yelp. I'm thinking about it now, because I have a pile of leftover's from Henry's, and the location nearest my house on Naotoma St recently re-opened for takeout.
Sadly (or gladly?), getting takeout from Henry's was about the happiest thing that happened to me in recent memory.
Enjoy some spicy food" (CC BY 2.0) by Gary Soup
I'll end this week, by introducing my newest friend: